It’s Spring—pictures from Spring Break beach trips, Spring formals, and Spring fever spontaneous adventures are abundantly dispersed throughout each social media outlet. Cute clothes are released from the closet and tan legs are quickly exposed. The evil game of comparingmyworstdaystoeveryone’sbest became a frequent thing to partake in while procrastinating between class or when I was tired of studying. On top of that, exams started and I had to fight to not let my grades define me. It can blind us college students–no matter how much we put our trust in God, it is still so easy to be quietly nagged by doubt. However, remembering that God’s will WILL be done regardless of how well we do in a class is a beautiful thing to write on our hearts with some serious ink. And if you don’t believe in God, I hope you at least believe that grades do not define you—you were made for more.
With every picture, I was comparing myself to everyone and everything—every time I scrolled through the pictures of every life but mine, I felt completely inadequate. I realized I would never be good enough. However, in that exact moment God hit me with the realization that there is a significant difference, thankfully, between feeling inadequate by the world’s standards versus feeling inadequate for my heavenly Father and His love. Thankfully though, He constantly craves our beautiful, broken, human hearts that will never be able to fully grasp the love and forgiveness he graciously gives us. I think in that moment, it’s okay to feel inadequate because we definitely do not deserve His perfect love—however, we need to realize that we are beautiful, wanted, and loved by the One who knit us together (“For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.” Psalm 139:13). Although this may be a cliché verse, its purpose is beautiful–it is a constant reminder that no matter how inadequate, imperfect, unworthy, or undesirable we may feel, He made us out of perfect love—and resting in that knowledge is what should give us enough strength to put down our self-destructive weapons and bask in the great glory of our gracious Knitter.
I hope you are reminded of how DEARLY loved you truly are (“For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 8: 38-39). I hope that by exposing my heart, you will have the courage to not only explore your own insecurities, but to realize that whether you find yourself constantly comparing yourself to others, or feel inadequate against the world’s high, unrealistic standards, you are worthy of love and truly beautiful “just the way you are.”
Yes, please strive to work on you and find joy in being able to grow in your relationships, but don’t feel like a failure when your life isn’t working out compared to your 427 friends’ best posts on Instagram. We may be fallen, but we are beautiful and loved. No matter the outcome of your final grades, know that you are as equally important as the student who either beat you on every exam, or the student who worked their hardest and still failed. Neither grades nor pictures nor significant others define us—if you are in Christ, living out our union with Him by faith is where we should look when seeking purpose and definition for our lives. (“I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.” Galatians 2:20)
You. are. loved.